So on I go not knowing..

I'm starting to feel finals coming on, mainly because the English one got handed out today. My mouth feels it too. Three sores. :/ I really want to hit the tank right now.. but I can't, I don't have time...

I give You the first place , in all things by faith..

this line is pretty interesting.. at the moment.. it makes me think of.. how am I supposed to give the Lord the first place when I feel like it's taking away time from my studies? I know a lot of people have experiences where when they give the Lord that time.. their studying time is more effective, etc... but.. I guess yesterday I realized I still doubt the Lord a lot.. when things become hard, hence yesterday's conversation with Camille. I guess this is a proving of faith? lol. (which is more precious than gold!) It's like.. theoretically, I know I can trust the Lord, I know His heart is good towards me, but part of me is like..
are You sure, Lord? What if I don't cooperate with You, then what?
"The Lord is not going to leave you hanging"

I hate having borderline grades.. it seems kind of impossible to get an A in English now.. unless I do reallyyyy well on the final.. but.. I don't have too long to read the novels and do well on like.. eight pages worth of stuff.. so.. I kind of.. am not too optimistic about that.
And then there's Econ.. which I also don't want a B in.. but.. at this point.. I need to do really well on the final too. -_-
Music.. same story..
ISF.. I need to pass.
I guess I would just be really disappointed if I ended up with straight B's. So.. where do you allocate time? Do you give and take or spread yourself out thin? :O

I can't believe I'm blogging about this. Time to study.