in? Dependence

So I flipped my calendar today, because I'm late on realizing that it's MAY already, and the inspirational picture was..

"INDEPENDENCE"
haha.
So I looked at that for awhile, and was like.. eh heh.. how ironic. And then I blacked out the I and the N, so now, if you look at my calendar from an angle that doesn't create glossy-ness, it looks like it says DEPENDENCE. haha. okay, fine, that isn't as amusing as i think it is..

I have no idea how I'm going to get everything done. I wrote the fastest two phrases I have ever written of music this afternoon. I think parts of it might be wrong, but I'll find out when my GSI emails me back..

This morning was a struggle to not fidget and squirm in my chair since I was both cold and tired and distracted and my mind was going a million times an hour. I hate when it won't quiet down, and the worst thing is, none of the thoughts are good, so I'm sitting here saying stuff outwardly but there's no connection between my mouth and my thoughts. which are going in circles because they're going from the actual thought to thinking how could i have thought that and then condemning myself for thinking and then recycle reuse.. (reduce???). Absolute disconnect. WOESOME hahaha. =] but seriously, what is there to do during those times?!? It just makes me feel like.. I need lots of time to confess, or something. O_o

Lord, do my homework with me.