Macro Economics

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I can't study :( lol. And...................... I don't care.

:( And I'm so in trouble for my midterm tomorrow. Tomorrow has two r's and one m. Who knew?

I need to get my priorities straight.

I don't think I can study in the SC... it just makes me want to sleep or play or be silly and chatter with a certain person who I wont emmeline name.

I need protein haha.. my muscles are DYING. Okay no. But they are really sore. It's sad how unbelievably sore I am from using 3-pound weights (yeah!!!) and running on a treadmill. Emmeline wants me to do Bay the Breakers .. or was it Break the Bayers? hahaha.. Yeah right.. We decided that by the end of the year, maybe I'll be up to the 5-pound weights instead of the 3's. I like how I'm so weak I can't do most of the exercises correctly cause I crutch by using the wrong muscles. It's involuntary, I promise.

It's 2AM.

I like editing people's papers. I think it'd be fun to be an English teacher. But that's kind of scary, because English teachers tend to be.. well............


... weird. :O or scary.

Freshman year of hs - scary
sophomore year - weird.. but she was reallyy cool :P
jr year.. scary.
sr year.. weird, but really funny

yeah.. I don't know why I keep planning things. Most of the time these plans that go on in my head amount to nothing in the practical sense and become mere fancies that blow away with the wind. Hahaha.

Sometimes I don't know if something is really cheesy sounding, or if I've just become so averse to anything that might border on cheesy that I slam down all happy words such as fascinating and wondrous.

You know what's a fun word to say? Naive. And it's fun to spell too. Especially with the accent on top. I like how words sound like the way they mean. Like "plunge". Like the sun plunging into the horizon.

Goodnight.........

Okay it always feels weird blogging about tons of things that have no relation to each other.. anyway..
reading my friend's blog really encouraged me.. that God can give us peace and take away our anxiety. I guess that's a big one for me. *points to tense muscles* and to love. I always thought it was easy to love. Then I wonder if it has really become harder, or if I'm just being exposed more.

I don't like being self-conscious. It's so strange, how different I feel in different settings. In physics discussion I asked the other two in my group about their breaks.. and it didn't seem weird at all. But then I know in other contexts, I would feel really shy about asking .. just cause I feel like people expect something else or would assume blahblahblah whatever. And today in music, I randomly went over to another group to help them prepare for their final cause my group members were all gone. From the outside, it probably looked pretty weird that I just came over and asked them what they were doing... but it didn't feel weird at all. Stuff like this confuses me mucho.

I think I've been around norcal people too long.. some of their vocabulary is starting to creep into my thoughts. creep. that sounds so.. creep..y.

Now Blogger saves your drafts automatically!

you know what's sad, remaximizing aim windows and realizing that everyone signed off without saying bye and probably are sleeping already.

(i need to go to sleep.. now.)

Part of me wants to change my major to English. The other part of me is extremely intimidated by the idea. I just don't think I'm cut out for English here in Berkeley. It's not that I dislike Econ (okay maybe right now I do and a lot of times I sit in class and wonder if anyone else is as bored as I am), but I do think doubling might be cutting it too close. I guess I could always try and then not finish one of them. Then there's Psych. Well, I don't think I want to do Psych even though Emii is convinced that she can see me doing it .. yeah.. but of course. English is less science-y, though :P Eh.. being indecisive sucks.