Soapbox

Bitter. Why read when it only makes me annoyed? Currently angry. Will probably make up later when I go to fold laundry. Bah.

Bright side. Played with cousin today for four hours, meaning attempt to play ping pong with a first grader, meaning pick up ping pong balls, and shot hoops for the rest of the time, meaning making my brother watch me to see if I have correct form and cheering her whenever she reached a goal.

So I was rather alarmed at first when my aunt kept insisting that my cousin stay at our place to play with, not my brother, but me. Because Esther is going back on Tuesday!! After much talk, she stayed. I was thinking, oh great, I have to entertain this kid and I absolutely suck at entertaining kids. I got tired and headache-y pretty fast trying to teach her how to play ping pong. The times when she actually did serve right, I couldn't return them. Hah. And then there were the many times when we had to go seek behind a car tire. Then she played with my Polly Pocket things for awhile while I chatted with Mai and David about my inability to entertain children. Then when we went to go shoot "basketballs" (volleyball, flat basketball, a soccerball, a flat volleyball..) in the backyard, my brother came along and I didn't exactly have to "entertain" her so that was a lot easier. And I realized that I can just talk to her like normal and she gets it. I guess her English has gotten a lot better.. she has the same first grade teacher that I had when I was in first grade. Crazy, right? I feel bad though, I don't want her to get the impression that I don't like spending time with her, I just don't like trying to entertain her cause it feels so forced.

I really want to just give up but I know I can't. UGH. -_-. diligence?

Today my dear cousin, after hearing me in response to my shooting the basketball
"I can't do it!!" (one of my favorite phrases it seems in the sports sector..)
was like
"No, don't say that, say that you can do it!"
"I can do it!"
*swish*
"YEAH!!!"
Awww.. cousin. She's so funny cause she's hecka girly in the sense that she likes Disney princesses like no other (stuff that I hated as a kid.. go Pooh!) and yet she'd much rather "play" basketball and pingpong over dolls (opposite of me).

So today was the only day where I woke up around.. noon-ish. I come down and my grandma greets me and calls me "shui mei ren" (sleeping beauty) and tells me I have the same look on my face as my auntie does.. "yen jing mee mee" (eyes small) ..

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